Friday, December 30, 2011

the facets of life (an explanation).

i think a lot of people describe life in linear terms; yes or no, white or black, up or down, left or right, and so on.  this, i feel, is almost never the case.  in fact, life doesn't follow patterns, either.

life can be turned upside down, ripped in half, shredded to bits, patched back together, and yet never strong as it was originally.  we've all experienced this, part of life is learning how to handle disappointments and failures.  on the other hand, life can be reinforced, built to last, and withstand all heartache and bumps in the road.  

naturally, our first instinct is to gravitate toward the first side of this, and having our own pity party.  of course this doesn't help our case much, rather, it hinders us from progression.

but not only is there the physical aspect to describe life, there are the multiple facets of emotion, which are all strung together.  if one emotion is tampered with, it consequently affects another.  even subconsciously, if one string is pulled, it is felt from all surfaces, sometimes causing a chain reaction.

i think with this explanation (my own), you can begin to understand why some situation may seem small and unimportant to you, when your friend irrationally reacts to it.  or, per se, the tables turn, and you happen to be the over-reactor.  

lesson #1.  its times like these where you just need to take a step back, breathe, and let things fix themselves.

lesson #2.  don't think of life in terms of absolutes.  "I'll never get there", "it always ends like this", "i can't fix my life", etc.

remember the Lion King?
of course you do.

does the circle of life ring a bell?
it's a circle for a reason, and i would care to argue that it's rather a sphere than anything else.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

highlights.. and lowlights

Christmas was eventful.  And ever continues to be, at this point.

*Best present by far, was being the recipient of a bass guitar.  A black and white Fender Squier.  It sounds lovely, can't wait to start jamming.  Can't believe this is my third instrument already.

*Skiing has taken place almost every day for the past week and a half, even though Utah has not received a single snow storm this year, absolutely ridiculous.

*Got in quite a bit of trouble yesterday.  Always seems to happen when I feel like I'm doing everything right for once, but then I happen to mess it all up, even though I want to make it all right.

*Besides getting privileges revoked, things turned around when I received my ACT scores back today.  First time ever taking it and not feeling great about the whole thing either, I consider 28 a great start!  My goal of 33 isn't too far away :)

To top it all off, I like getting ready for the day sometimes.

Monday, December 12, 2011

winter oddity?

it's been an odd winter season, for a few reasons.

*living in the frigid climate of (semi) northern Utah, we usually have about 2 feet of snow in the valley by this time of year.

season of 2011? absolutely none.  we haven't had a single large dump.

*new environment of school. trust me the list is never-ending on that topic.

*as if i believed school was my #1 priority before.. now it REALLY is.

*after Christmas break, i have almost the whole month of January off for a school project.  Back to Boston once more, promise more details will come later.

*Finals are this week. 2 hours per class, split among 3 days.  It's stressing me out.

*I don't feel like doing anything creative.  Harp, writing, or reading.  Bad, Emily.

*I have the sudden urge to be like all those other girls to spend who knows how long, taking photos of themselves until the perfect one comes out, all with that fancy camera.  I guess that's not me, cause it hasn't happened even though the camera is in my possession.

(this is the best i got..)

last, and DEFINITELY least,

all. i ever feel like doing. is coming up with witty facebook statuses.  what can i say.  it's been a weird season.

Sunday, December 4, 2011


Facebook status last week:

"I think I'll take advantage of a mistletoe this year :)"

36 likes. and a couple offers.


mom came home with some mistletoe for me.  she thought i better have one ready after she read my status.

it's quite large.  don't mind the sunday sweats, either.  it's 20 degrees and snowing.