my day suddenly has gotten better, after realizing i have

one week left

until i can RUN.  and hop and skip and jump and be a child again.

and this girl is happy.

what gets me through the day.

wear your invisible crown every day, and remember who you are.

on a lighter note..

today was an absolutely beautiful day.

thumbs up for not being at practice, reading The Count of Monte Cristo and letting the wind dry curly hair.

what happens when you haven't seen a doc in a year.

i don't recommend bottling up your feelings for longer than necessary.  your body shuts down and you don't even know where to begin living again.

my world has come crashing down over the past two weeks. 

running has become my life.  it keeps me sane during 3rd and 4th term.  not only that, but one of the only reasons why i was okay with transferring schools was if i could still run for Timp. 

as of last week, my life as a runner ended.  temporarily, i believe, but this is a prolonged time of inactivity, if you will.

the season started off fantastic, had a track meet down in st. george, soaked up the sun, and qualified for state with my medley team!  i couldn't have been more thrilled, my dream and goal of going to state was coming true! i had worked so hard to accomplish that, and that made me even more determined to qualify in more events throughout the season.

tuesday of last week brought about another small meet, pretty relaxed.  my worst nightmare came true then.  i fell again in my 100m hurdles. this is not the first time i've fallen (you can read about my first fall and hurdle disappointments here). this automatically meant a week or two off for me to heal.  a disappointment but not my biggest worry.

the biggest worry was my shins.  over the past month i've had horrible shin splints, and after i fell i could feel constant pain in my shins.  i went to the doctor to see what was going on.

after the doctor's visit, i was diagnosed with more than i had asked for:

-stress fractures in my shin.  8 weeks of no impact, which means no running, jogging, jumping, etc.

-anterior compartment syndrome.  requires surgery to fix.

-plantar fasciitis.  bone spurs and tight, numb tendons and ligaments in heel and arch.

treatment ranges for each of these.  but in general i have minimum 4 weeks absolutely NO running, and i'm going to try and come in and compete at region.  if i feel okay then i have a green light to run at state.  but i think both my parents and i know that this isn't going to happen.  there's no way that my body, in its current state, could possibly be ready to compete.  and even if i did.. i would have to take two months off AFTERWARD, into my summer, and i don't want to risk that.

its been the most disappointing couple weeks, my emotions are all over the place i don't know whether to cry or scream in frustration.

-it's kind of one of those things that you don't understand why EVERYTHING had to go wrong at the same time, and why you can't pull yourself together. 

but i guess that's what you get being a runner and not seeing a doctor in a year or two to discover your problems. 

questions answered. and tags.

i've been in quite an uncreative mood lately.  just living day to day is my current motto.
track season has officially begun; we have had two meets so far, and still loving hurdles with my life.
its when tori and i have our heart to hearts, cam and i soak each other with water bottles, and i continue to work as hard as possible.

so, i've been officially tagged. in one of those "questionnaires" for bloggers. i tend to shy away from these sorts of things, but tori would kill me if i didn't do it (love you sis).

--what is your biggest dream in life?
   probably going to medical school.  succeeding in life overall tends to drive my every action.

--who has inspired you the most?
   i've never really had any "idols" in my life, but i definitely look up to my teachers and instructors in school.  they know a lot more than you think about life; take the time to get to know them personally.

--what is your comfort food?
   if you know me at ALL.  you would know the answer.  Oreo's.  of course.

--if you have a heartbreak playlist, what are some songs on it?
   this is a hard one. definitely beautiful love by the afters. and every song ever written by adele.

--if you could kiss any actor, who would it be? (i'm stealing a question from tori)
   definitely Chris Hemsworth. Thor blew my mind, he is a hunk.

--how many kids is your ideal number?
   2 is the golden number.  one boy, one girl, just like my family.

--who are you best friends with?
   i don't consider anyone my best friend, just a best friend for certain things.  tor when it comes to track, syd when i need serious counseling and a laugh and discussing certain men, then zoe, addie and amy, the girls i spend every weekend with.  then the boys. trev, caleb, jake, hougs, cam.  they rock my world.  (obviously there are too many to count. i love everyone.)

--if you could switch places for a day with one person, who would it be?
   anyone who is living my dream. a traveller, lover, creator, and healer.

--favorite brand of clothing?
   anything from nordstrom.  i'm an eclectic dresser.

--what is your favorite dinner to eat?
   anything my dad makes, he is the real chef of the family.  :)

--what do you crave all the time?
   oreos. love. friendship. answers to all my questions. music. running. beauty.

alright enough about me. but there, i did it.
feel free to go ahead and answer these questions with your own answers!

i tag:

brittany b.
annie h.
nicole t.
taryn & taylor n. 

:) good luck girls!

a love affair.

this stuff saves my life before track meets.

KT tape does wonders for shin splints.

i'm in love, too. ps. 

(his name is track. we have this really great love affair, where i run to my hearts content, and he gives me pain. just what you wanted every day, right?)

KONY 2012.

My family is sentimentally attached to Africa, especially Kenya and Uganda.  My mother has spent years of her life dedicated to helping the people there.  Having been there myself, seeing this video really does a good job of representing what it's really like to be there.  It's a reality check, even for the complacent people of America. (yes, YOU.)

watch this.^^
(I understand it's long.  I GUARANTEE its worth your time.  It's riveting.)

The world needs to work together to solve a problem like this.  Raise awareness.

KONY 2012.